Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Accessible Classics

One of the best things about having a Kindle (Fire) is that you can download all the great classic literature for free! Well, those in the public domain, anyway, but that includes just about all the best novels from early 20th Century and older. That includes just about all of Dickens, as well as the greats of French literature of the 19th century, which is an interest of mine. Two nights ago I decided to make a go at what many critics regard as the greatest novel ever written (but read by virtually nobody), A la Recherche du Temps Perdu by Proust. I started Swann's Way, the first volume, and I loved the the imagery, the reveries, and I lasted only about 10 pages, because NOTHING happened. I read the synopsis on Wikipedia, and basically, very little happens throughout volume one. Most of it is the narrator reliving old memories, each one branching out to the next. I'm sorry -- I consider myself very literary, a connoisseur of the classics, but at my age I'm no longer able to enjoy literature for art's sake like I used to. I need something to "happen." Sorry, Marcel,  but I doubt I'll try again.

So last night I turned my attention to Crime and Punishment by Dostoyevsky. I read the Wikipedia synopsis too; action enough to satisfy me. It's not as wordy and as full of digressions as most 19th century fiction -- at least not yet -- but the focus of the novel is more on characterization than anything else, or so it seems to me at the outset. This is Raskolnikov; this is what he does, this is how he lives with himself after he does it, and this is how what he does affects his family and friends. I hope I can stay with it, and look forward to the thrill of appreciating one of the most important literary artworks for the first time -- much as I did earlier this when, bowled over by the cinematic treatment of Les Miserables inspired me to read the original Victor Hugo novel, again on Kindle (not for free this time -- but for only about $2). 

The novel was abundantly overwritten in many places, and packed with typical 19th digressions -- one whole section on the battle of Waterloo, with the only reference to the story coming at the end of the battle with the accidental meeting of Thenardier and Marius' father -- but in other places, filled with more heart and soul than any other novel I've ever read. I'll never forget the scene in which Jean ValJean has tracked down the dead Fantine's young daughter Cosette at the Thenardier's inn. Jean Valjean eats supper in the dining room and anonymously observes how the innkeeper and his monstrous wife treats the little girl they've transformed into little more than a slave. For most of the scene Cosette, her work done for the time being, crouches hidden underneath a table, hoping for just a few minutes out of the clutches of the evil couple. The Thenardiers' own two young daughters, including Eponine, treat Cosette just as poorly as do their parents, and won't let her play with a makeshift doll they've made out of rags. Then, when the sisters get bored with their doll and toss it out onto the floor near Cosette, the poor girl quickly scoops it up and plays with it back in her hiding place under the table. Jean Valjean watches her play with it as if she'd never been allowed to play at all in her short life. This comes to a violent end when Eponine looks for the doll again, sees that Cosette has it, and screams to her mother for justice. Madame Thenardier, filled with disproportionate self-righteous rage, rushes to Cosette, and yanks the doll out of her arms. Cosette, who had learned the hard way that the best way to survive is never to call attention to herself, loses control and cries like a baby. At that moment, Jean Valjean pushes back his chair and stomps out of the inn. He returns moments later, holding a beautiful, expensive doll coveted by every little girl in town. He approaches the sobbing girl, still crouched under the table, leans down and says "This is for you." Words that the girl had never heard before in her whole life. My eyes welled when I first read this scene, and they welled up equally so in subsequent readings. It was all the more powerful for me because I was not at all prepared for it; as no such scene exists in the musical.

I would love to re-read Les Miz the novel, but the damn thing was almost 1,000 pages. The smart thing to do is to bookmark my favorite scenes.

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Watching Movies -- Old School

Turner Classic Movies recently had a theme night for boarding school films. They broadcast two of the most famous of them back-to-back: Dead Poets Society and The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie.  I had never seen either all of the way through. I was amazed to find that they are virtually the same movie. Idealistic teacher eschewing the conventional in favor of elevated individualism, much to the chagrin of his/her superiors.  Betrayed by a trusted student who was spurred to betrayal when another student follows the teacher's inspiration to aspire, to dream, to be themselves, to live to express their true selves and meets a tragic death. Subsequently dismissed by his/her superiors, leaving  behind a tainted legacy that likely will not survive the next term. Dead Poets Society came out about 20 years after Brodie, almost surely from different source material, yet I wonder how conscious Peter Weir, the director of Dead Poets Society was of the similarities. Not that it mattered to his job; he was the director of the material, not the creator.

Friday, July 26, 2013

College Journal - December 11, 1980. 11:28 PM


I don't feel like saying much right now. I'll let John Lennon speak for me.
 
                        The world is treating me bad-Misery.

                        There is a place where I can go
                        when I feel low, when I feel blue
                        and it's my mind, and there's no time
                        when I'm alone.

                        That boy took my love away
                        He’ll regret it someday
                        but this boy wants you back again.

                        It won't be long till I belong to you.

                        You've just got to call on me.

                        You know you made me cry
                        I see no use wondering why.

                        I've been working like a dog.

                        I never realized a lot of things before
                        if this is love you God to give me more.

                        Tell me why you cried, and why you lied to me.

                        I got a whole lot of things to tell her
                        when I get home.
           
                        I told you before, oh! You can't do that.

                        I'll be back someday.

                        I'm a loser, and I'm not what I appear to be.

                        I don't want to spoil the party, so I'll go.

                        And now my life has changed in those many ways
                        my independence seems to vanish in the haze...
                        Won't you please, please help me?

                        ... Feeling 2 foot small...

                        I think I'm going to be sad, I think it's today.

                        And when I awoke, I was alone-this bird had flown.

                        Nowhere man, don't worry
                        take your time, don't hurry.

                        Say the word, and you'll be free.

                        A man must break his back to earn his day of leisure
                        will she understand it when he's dead?

                        I know I'll never ever lose affection...

                        It took me so long to find out, and I found out.

                        It’s my pride, yes it is.

                        Can you hear me that when it rains and shines,
                        it's just a state of mind.

                        Leave me where I am, I'm only sleeping.

                        I know what it's like to be dead
                        I know what it is to be sad.

                        Listen to the cover of your dreams.

                        Always know sometimes think it's me...
                        No one I think is in my tree.

                        Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes and you're gone.

                        Nothing to do to save his life, call his wife in.

                        I read the news today, oh boy
                        about a lucky man who made the grade
                        and though the news was rather sad
                        well I just had to laugh...
                        A crowd of people stood and stared,
                        they'd seen his face before...

                        All you need is love.

            `           How does it feel to be
                        one of the beautiful people?

                        Goo goo goo joob.

                        But when you talk about destruction,
                        don't you know that you can count me out.

                        The wind is low, the birds will sing,
                        that you are part of everything.

                        Looking through a glass onion.

                        The children asked him if to kill was not a sin.

                        Happiness is a warm gun.

                        I can't stop my brain.

                        Half of what I say is meaningless
                        but I say it just you reach you, Julia.

                        Yes I'm lonely, wanna die.

                        Take it easy.

                        The latest and greatest of them all.

                        Cry baby cry, make your mother sigh
                        she's old enough to know better.

                        Right! Right! Right!

                        Now it's time to say good night.

                        Some kind of loneliness is measured out in years.

                        Don't let me down.

                        Christ you know it ain't easy
                        You know how hard it can be
                        the way things are going
                        they're going to crucify me.

                        All we are saying, is give peace a chance.

                        I wish I was a baby, I wish I was dead.

                        All I want is you.

                        Nothing’s gonna change my world.

                        Dig it!

                        You know my name, look up the number.

                        Come together right now
over me.

                        Love is old, love is new
                        love is cold, love is you.

                        Here comes the Sun King
                        everybody's laughing, everybody's happy.

                        Who on earth do you think you are? A superstar?
                        Well right you are!
                        For we all shine on
                        like the moon and the stars and the sun.

                        War is over, if you want it.

                        Children, don't do what I have done
                        I couldn't walk, and I tried to run
                        so I got to tell you goodbye.

                        Hold on John, John hold on
                        it's gonna be all right
                        you're gonna win the fight.

                        Can do you no harm to feel your own pain.

                        They hate you if you're clever and they despise a fool...
                        There's room at the top, they are telling you still
                        but first you must learn how to smile as you kill
                        if you want to be like the folks on the Hill…
                        if you want to be a hero, will just follow me.
                        People say we've got it made
                        don't they know are so afraid?
                        Just a boy and a little girl
                        trying to change the whole wide world...
                        Were afraid of everyone
                        afraid of the sun...
                        Isolation!

                        Don't you worry about what you've done
                        don't feel sorry about the way it's gone.

                        Love is you, you and me
                        love is knowing we can be.
           
                        We sat and talked of revolution...
                        We both were nervous, feeling guilty
                        and neither one of us knew just why
                        well well well.

                        Look at me
                        Who am I supposed to be?
                        Here I am
                        what am I supposed to do?
                        Who am I?
                        Nobody knows but me.
                        God is a concept by which we measure our pain...
                        The dream is over --what can I say?
                        And so, dear friends
                        you'll just have to carry on
                        the dream is over.

                        Imagine there’s no countries
                        It isn’t hard to do
                        Nothing to kill or die for
                        And no religion too…
                        You may say I’m a dreamer
                        But I’m not the only one
                        I hope someday you’ll join us
                        And the world will be as one.

                        One thing you can’t hide
                        Is when you’re crippled inside.

                        I was dreaming of the past
                        And my heart was beating fast
                        I was swallowing my pain…
                        I began to lose control…
                        I was shivering inside…
                        I didn’t want to hurt you
                        I didn’t want to make you cry.
                        Sometimes I feel like going down.

                        I don’t want to be a soldier mama, I don’t want to die.

`                       Oh my love for the first time in my life
                        My eyes are wide open.

                        How can I go forward when I don’t know which way I’m facing?
                        How can I go forward when I don’t know which way to turn?

                        Oh Yoko! Oh Yoko! My love will turn you on.

                        New York City! New York City!
                        What a bad ass city!
                        Que pasa New York! Que pasa New York!

                        We’re playing those Mind Games together…
                        Love is the answer.

                        One day at a time.

                        Now I’m only 32, and all I want to do is boogaloo.
           
                        Somebody please, please help me
                        You know I’m drowning in a sea of hatred.

                        You don’t know what you got, until you lose it.

                        Bless you, whoever you are,
                        Holding her now
                        Be warm and kindhearted
                        Remember, although love is strange,
                        Now and forever love will remain.

                        So long ago, was it in a dream?
                        Was it just a dream?
                        Somebody called out my name, as it started to rain.

                        Well I was wondering how long this could go on, on and on
                        I thought I could never be surprised.

                        I’ve been across to the other side
                        I’ve shown you everything, I’ve got nothing to hide…
                        Everybody’s hustling for a buck and a dime
                        I’ll scratch your back and you knife mine…
                        Everybody loves you when you’re six feet in the ground.

                        It’ll be just like starting over.


John
Ono (Ne Winston) Lennon
Born October 9, 1940 Liverpool, England;
Died December 8, 1980 New York, NY, USA
Out of the mouth of babes,
Out of the pistols of madmen.
We love you and will miss you so, so much, John.